Today i went to my friends wedding iin and Adi.
They;re from Onizuka Band..they were a jrock cover band too in the town, and they played MUCC, Luna Sea,etcwell...congrats to them!! ^_^

And in there...just like usuall, i met lots of jrock mania friends, it's quite funny too because
the party was in Islamic way, so women and men were seperated.
we just chat with the boys across a food table.

And...welll in there, i met my crush one.Yes..he's a guitarist, from the quite new famous band.
He was like...the silly one, the nerd and uncool person (beause he's guitar freaks)
But..then...i dunno AM I really like him?i meant...in certain time, i was so in love..really in love and i blame the fate that we are quite best friend, well best friends will not being a lover isn't it.??

BUT NOW...Today, when i met him....
I REALLY REALLY dont have any FEELINGS?!no feeling missing..i dont even care...ckckckkc.....*dosuhite rossy?!*
yes..WHY??

Do i really always being hurt by love..
so that i cant even love someone again?
since..i think it's serious!by the time i know, i crush on somebody,
i got fear and always say to myself that...
"he will not love you, you'll never be lover..get up Rossy!!"
the words always play on my mind, so by the time i met the personit's all blank...it's nothing...
Gosh...am i too selfish to myselfor i really have problems??
i think i'll never love somebody
T_T