If you love yourself just know you'll never be alone...

Monday, August 22, 2011

Personality Test...this is so right yo~

Taken from :
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Sunday, August 07, 2011

Dreams Come True - English Version

English Version
(more simple version than the indonesian, but forgive me if there's wrong grammar. XD)

Dreams Come True - The Cranberries

-Pre Java Rockin' Land 2011-

First, i'm not very excited with this festival. It held every year,so yeah~~ just another music festival. Then i saw the leak version of their poster (this is like 2 months before the concert) that it written The Cranberries. he? Cranberries? are they reunion? they are still alive?? i meant, after the Starts Albums, i just barely listen to them..no..i dont listen to them anymore. Time just flies...i'm having japanese music invasion, then korean music invasion,then Lady Gaga..then college - graduate being employee, what-so-ever.

remember~...i was in love with The Cranberries in a verryylong time ago.
its was 94-95, and that time i was 11 years old. Now (currently) i'm 26 years old.

So there...
finally,i bought the ticket,without any hope or heart-beating. Its just, ~ ok lets buy the ticket! at least it isn't too expensive,and i want to see my childhood idol.

- The day -

So the day of the concert come. I still dont have any feeling. Just plain~~ just like another day of concert.i went to the venue bymyself. Right there, then i met Fietter & co. (Fietter : http://fietter.blogspot.com)
the venue was soo biiiiigg. So many stage,its like...lollapaloza / woodstock. But not too crowded, which is that good! (i came to the venue, at 4pm).
The venue, Ancol is beside the beach anyway :)

So it written that The Cranberries, would perform on the Main Stage.
so going around, watched indonesian local bands, eat, drinks,chat with friends...then 1st appearance in the main stage, which is Indonesian legendary rock star, Godbless on the stage.

I watched them from distance,while eating. God Bless ended around 7pm-ish. Then me and my friends (Fietter & Ria, husband-wife) went straight to the front row,for The Cranberries. Funnily, in the meantime we didn't speak about The Cranberries at all.

So first it Ed Kowalczyk -ex Live, on the stage. i'm so enjoying it!. He's also my childhood idol!! its like...for a female vocalist, its The Cranberries, and the male vocalist, there's LIVE.
i thought that He wouldnt play LIVE's songs. But HE IS...
and i'm thriiiillled!!!! its like....fffwwaack my dream come true!!

when i was 11, there's no internet, no concert,all i can do is just dreaming that someday i can watch their live in front of my eyes
damN~ i was crying when Ed K sang 'Lighting Crashes'. That song reminds me of my late aunty who died fighting cancer.

its was mind blasting live...
Ed K was in front of my eyes!
and yeaaahh i was sing a long all the time...then after he finished, i thought that i can move further to other front row. Guess what?! people didn't move! and they started to fill all the venue. It means,

they all wait for the The Cranberries. i saw lots of foreigner (not indonesian) came also.So total time..i was standing in front of the stage. From 7.30 - 11.00PM (before the Cranberries was on stage)

then....the lighting blast...
people scream...
you knowwww~~...I CANT SEE NOTHINGGGG...everybody that in front of me just screaming and jumping like heelll
it was Analyze - intro-
and my friend Ria, just screamed like...hysterical...she spotted Dolores O'Riordan first!!
1st song, Analyze...i;m just standing still and disbelief. Is this real The Cranberries? Am i dreaming? ... i am dreaming right? i only see barely Ms.O'Riordan because people just jumping and screaming.
then i saw her walkin' around and singing. I'm shockked...my heart felt like cut off hahahahaha.

i cant believe The Cranberries in front of my eyes?!?!?!!?!? LIVE...in front of my eyes! not in TV, not in youtube...damnn its amazing feelings
i pray 'thank you God' for like...more than 10 times. It is dreams come true. The feelings of loving The Cranberries is totally come back.
of course i was scream along...sang along...eye contact with Dolores wahahahahaha (--> actually i bet its just a coincidence since i'm in the front row line but..who care? i care...wahahhahaahahaha)

Their song list that night
Analyze --> Dolores wore a black long coat
Animal Instinct --> Dolores started play guitar
How --> i'm shocked that they play this old song from 93. And guess what?!? people are sang along together. Which mean..WE ARE tottaly true fans
Dreaming My Dreams --> So beautiful
Linger --> i was crying listen to this song...what a mixture feelings
Ode To my Family --> crying part 3 (dooh such a tearjearker) this songs is represent bout my parents also, remembering i dont live with them and we apart for long time
Tomorrow --> THeir new song...i love this song in their first tune. i cant wait for 'Roses Album'
Schizofrenia Playboy --> another new song...
Just My Imagination --> Empty --> Waltzing --> Free To Decide.... non stop!!!
Salvation --> Dolores went back to backstage for a while, and then she came back with Indian hat, and she started to dancing (you know her style isnt it...amaziiiinnngg)
Ridiculous Thoughts --> Zombie --> Promises
and they all come back...and we scream.... WE WANT MOREEEEE WE WANT MOREEE
Dreams....
their last song!, and Dolores changed her outfit to a long dress with blinks...pretty

Dolores has her own style on throwing her water drinks to audience. And i got the splash for 2 times...hahahahahaah i felt like being baptism (again)
Definitely, The Cranberries is still hold on dude...they are amazing. All in full energy, and big smileeee

then...the show over...
i still on hype...me and Ria...we just sitting down near the stage, and just screaming and hugs each other...//its The Cranbeerieesss...its Doloresss...kyaaaaa// (fangirlish-totally-maximus-mode)
i'm tottaly in love (again) with The Cranberries.

The show over on 1.30am...
but we just caLm down each other, and i was at home at 4 am..
i cant sleep...its still on my head, i cant believe my dreams come true.

BEFORE, The Cranberries ever come to Indonesia in around 2002-2003 (i forgot). That time, i was busy in other town, helping my dying aunt fought her cancer. So that's why i cant see the,
thanks Lord..that you gave me chance to see them,even it apart 15 years i waited!!! (until i forgot for a while)

- Chasing Dolores -

24 July 2011,
i woke up at 8 am...l not seriously sleep though.
then i blackberry-messaging with my friend Ria Lin (another Ria), and well she often chasing the international artist and took pics together.

i said to her.."as if~ The Cranberries still here (Jakarta)"
She : Why dont you try? they stayed at Hotel Borobudur
Me : I bet they already leave...their concert was yesterday
She : hey you stupid arse...just go ahead to the hotel,if they are not there, at least you wouldn't die in curiosity.

so...people...
i dont have any faith at all for this
i meant~~ chasing my idols to their hotel?!?! HELLOO I'M NOT THAT FREAAAKK...but wait,ITS the Cranberries, it could be just once in a life time. Remembering i stay on Asia, not in Europe.so, i dont know what power that struck on me. All i remember just i was already on the taxi heading to Hotel Borobudur.

I still remember, typing on my facebook status.'Having a ridiculous thoughts...if it fail,I swear this is gonna be funny story for my grandchild.at least I'm not die in curiousity'

You know~~ i was wearing my snake skin- heels (because i was thinking, if the Cranberries was already flew, then i'll just hang around the hotel nicely, with putting my make up on). Oh well,the hotel is 5-stars hotel also.

So first, when i was standing in the lobby, Ed k was in front of my eyes....
i'm like...SHOCCKED...ok pull my digital camera and picc with him. Of course i say thank you, and his performance was amazing.
and helloww..so many teenagers were there also,waiting for Good Charlotte.

Please remind, that this is MY FIRST TIME DOING THIS.

then, i went to see the crew and i ask the main question... (damn i was feel so embarrased) //Hi, is The cranberries still here?//
and the crew said : //YES// . For god sakkee my heart pounding so heart, that i almost faint... THEY ARE STILL HEREEEE...i might have time to meet them again!!!

its just, This band, The Cranberries. It was very vivid memories. First time i learn English, is because i wanna know what's the meaning of The Cranberries song?, i learn and play guitar..its because of Dolores plays guitar. In the teenage angst-crazy moment, i listen to 'Dying in the sun'..and cried silently everyday. So after a long time burried in memories, then suddenly it all appear again. in front of my eyes.

So i was confuse, what should i do? sitting in lobby? or what? how? i was completely zero act. i wasn't hoping at all, since i'm just too confuse.
then suddenly i saw blurrly ( i forgot to bring my eye glasses also) Noel Hogan just cross by...
//is it Noel Hogan? or man with beard??//....1 second..2 second..3 second...IT ISSS NOEEEL HOGAAANNN ROSSSYYYY//

So i jumped from the hotel sofa, and (act like calm) towards him, and ask him
me : hi, Noel Hogan isnt it? (its is so stupid isnt ittt..i knoooow)
him : yeah..
me : can i take picture with you??
him : sure.....
me : when you'll be fliying
him : we will go to shanghai at 11 pm. so we'll be here until late. (by the time we spoke, it was still 11 am,peopleeeee)
me : Ok...i'll wait, where's the other?
him : i dont know...they're still sleeping i guess, we are in different room, and we all get jet lagged.
me ;ok thank you so much..i cant believe i meet you finally.

then he goes..
and i'm turning blue and pale....my heart beat like crazy, i'm not dreaming..am i?? no i'm not...

SOOO
it motivated me to wait a whole day there, for The Cranberries.

its was already lunch time, and i felt hungry. SO i went to the pool side, and order food there. Theeenn i saw Noel Hogan (again) swam and just get tanned.

Omg, Mr Hogan...if you read this, i swore i didnt stalk you. its just we are in the same place okaayyy.

i didnt approach him again,guys..i think they need privacy also isnt it? and i respect that.

After finishing my sandwich, i went inside (its damn hot sunday)
and them i met Fergal Lawler...took picc again. He's lovely,but he;s short isn't is? hahahahaha i never measure or realize though

Then,time flies until evening. Finally i met other 6 people, who just wait for the Cranberries. So we talked, chat, sharing stories.Because we waited Dolores O'Riordan dan Mike Hogan.
it was 7 pm (yes people 7 pm!!!!)
a teenage girl said, 'i think i saw you fave singer just cross by to the gym/pool area)..this teenage didn't recognize Dolores O Riordan too bad...


After we all tired, and hopeless. Listen to that news, we felt like having jolt again, BUT still no sign of Dolores. So agaiiinn we just sitting down and i started to say.."lets go home...this is the time that they should leave hotel to airport and no sign at all, its just a dream....forget the dream, yesterday we already had the chance to watch their live,its enough. no more miracle'

Suddenly small short woman was 5 meters behind me, and it is herrr...Dolores O'Riordan....
it came like lighting strike and flash...a very short moment. i think below 5 minutes. We just took pic together, (me and other 6 people) and i had the changed that say to her that, her songs are save my life and a life changing moment. and Dolores smiled at me, and say 'thank you its lovely'... ( i would not forget her face when she said that)
and the manager came, and pull her to the lift, and the manager kindda angry and said to us... She just had short time,because need to catch the flight!!!!
(okk misterrrrr hahahahah)

After Dolores went back to her hotel room.
6 of us, just screamed, cried and hugh each other...amazing...
this is dreams come true...a dreams CAN come true...

So, we managed to get out from hotel...it seems that the manager already warn the security to keep and eye to us. OK MISTERRR MANAGER WE KNOWW...WE FINNALLY CAN MEET DOLORES, AND ITS ENOUGH...AND I KNOW YOU WORRIED ABOUT US, SINCE WE ARE IN THE HOTEL FROM 11AM TO 8PM wahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

so whileee we are waiting in the lobby. WAiting for go home actually~~ (not waiting the cranberries anymore).Suddenly, other The Cranberries members were shown up. That was the time that i can have pics moment with Mike Hogan (he;s cuuuuteee...but before when i was teenage,my crush was Fergal LOL)
and me and Donny (the 6 people who waited them) spoke to Fergal about their new tracks..oww Fergalll of course we love it! Tomorrow single is so beautiful.

After that, Dolores came and ran, straight towards the audy car, only for her. And other members were using other cars...and bye bye The cRanberries.

a dreams can come true~~
my dreams come true...
i'm just a girl, dreaming on her sleep before and listen to their song... In Indonesia ( a very far from Europe or Ireland)
its amazing feeling.

Now everytime i feel down and blue...i'll remember this story, and it motivate me, that a dreams could come true. i dont know how,dont know where, dont know when...but its there. dont stop praying...
i was praying (when i was 11 years old) until i forgot bout it...but God, dont forget :) and he fullfill mine.

MaYBE for The Cranberries members themselves or Dolores herself,they think that I'm just a asian fans who try to meet them. i'm sure i am their nothing, and i just a fan. But for me...its a life changing.
its a dreams come true.